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According to Genesis, Jacob was given the name “Israel” meaning “struggles with God” for wrestling all night with an angel. I don’t know if that’s true etymologically, but the fact is that the Bible itself, and the traditions that make use of it, all encourage us to dig into these tough questions.
Faith is not the same as simple belief; it occupies a much larger place in a person’s life. Giving it that place means dealing with our doubts and asking the big questions and risking the idea that we could be wrong.
As I am reconstructing faith, no longer holding to literalist interpretation, I can still find meaning in these stories. Whether they’re what the authors intended varies and is often unknowable, of course, but we aren’t confined to authorial intent for our interpretations in any texts, Biblical or otherwise.
HP Lovecraft wrote a famously racist story called “The Shadow Over Innsmouth” about the horrors of miscegenation. As a mixed ethnicity reader, I read it as a celebration of my identity, the exact opposite of what he had in mind. This isn’t uncommon in literature at all.
This is really common. And in my opinion it’s a great way to engage with religion.
There are certainly some denominations that will see you as, uh, “fresh meat” (e.g. Jehovah’s Witnesses, many fundamentalists) but many other places are just happy to have you there. Methodists and Episcopalians for sure, and I think Catholics as well. Can’t say for others.